Today is when it really hit too much. I got screwed over by the adoption agency, a letter from Katelyn saying shes sorry and still loves me. I still love her, the problem is its too complicated now.
I’ve lost Katelyn, I’ve lost my daughter.
I give up.
That is all.
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Its good that your seeing that and moving on.
There’s only one way that loss can be forever. Steer clear of that and there’s always a chance.
Right now though, you need to make sure that we don’t lose Zach. I’m not talking about suicide, I’m talking about you retreating inward.
You’ve done very well lately with the posts about fasting etc and we can see bits of the old Zach returning. Keep on that track and rediscover yourself. Everything else can wait.
I wonder if Kate’s guardian or mother knows about the letter.